Shadows

Shadows in the night.
Shadows where there is no light.
So dark the colors they wear.
Secrets so many they bear.
Death, their close and dear friends.
Sorrow, to many they always send.
Far from me they always stay,
for I keep seeing the bright new day.
I always wonder, why can't I die?
And among white flowers would I lie.
My yearning for peace finally to me would come.

And a sad tune, I would no longer hum.
Shadows! Dark Shadows, don't stay away.
Give to another, my new day.
Willingly would I rest for them.
For within loneliness, my life has stemmed.
Take me into thy deep dark coat.
So others my presence don't have to loathe.
No other has ever waited for you more.
For once gone, my spirits would finally soar.

Self Confession

There is no limit and no boundary to happiness,
Whoever said that we cannot have everything we want- was wrong
Why not? Why can't I have everything?
Why can't I dedicate my life to the pursuit of making myself happy?
Why is it a selfish sin to want nothing but joy?
Within me, I feel the limitless surge of possibilities
My energy has broken free and is catapulting in unknown directions
All ends are possible and impossible equally
I want to dance, create, sing, explore and evolve all at once
Why must we limit ourselves to one plan, one inevitability?
Everything that is meant to happen- will
Regardless of our struggle strife or surrender- regardless of suffering
Regardless of sacrifice
And all of it will happen, in its own good time
For its own good reason-

I don't know where down the line I decided that I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY
I need to take myself in this body to the ends of the earth- all the places I can possibly go,
I say this with shameless selfishness and I accept that now, I'm not a bad person
I may not be the kindest, most beautiful, most humble…but I want this life
I want its mountains and its oceans- I want its liberty and the resonance of what has been
And what is yet to be- I want to create my own frequencies-and release them…

Every once in a while there is a shift in the cosmos, something has happened,
Perhaps one single tendril of my being has touched something wonderful-
Something I can't see yet- something I don't recognize
But in the breeze, and with the dawn, there is a feeling
Like…another nail has shot free off the board- or, and I'm trying to explain this as best as I can in this very moment- but capturing this invisible illusive electricity in words is…
Like…the space between darkness and dawn- just a bit surreal-
Is it happening to me? Am I really here? Where have I come-
This is my skin, my clothes, my hands …but it's all changing…

I feel, like I have been given a second chance at life,
There are things in the past that were strangling me, cutting off the air
And I think I was dying- but unconsciously- all the same…

I can't express how I feel anymore. Words are just not enough.

If That is Love

If you're gonna break my heart and leave

Make promises you don't intend to keep

If that's love then I want no part.

But if you think that love should last for life

If you believe it's more than just one night

If that's love then you've got my heart.

And if you'd rather hold on to your pride

Than wipe away the tears you made me cry

If that's love then I want no part.

But if you're gonna be there when I need

Someone to just hold me tenderly

If that's love then you've got my heart.

If the kinda love that you bring

Comes with no demands and no strings

If in your eyes I see for sure

That you're the one I'm waiting for

I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything.

If I have to let go of my dreams

Become someone I never ever thought I'd be

If that's love then I want no part.

But if you're gonna be the kind of man

Who's willing just to take me as I am

If that's love then you've got my heart.

tell me in your arms I'll be safe

Where loneliness and fear have no place

The only thing you have to do

The only thing I ask of you

Is give your heart, your soul, and your faith.

And if you cannot give these things to me

Then I just have to tell you honestly

If that's love then I want no part.

But if you say you've finally found in me

The only place that you could ever be

If that's love then you've got my heart