Aaj fir us jagah par khada hoon jahaan kuch 8 saal pehle apni zindagi ke sawaalo ka jawaab dhoonda tha.
Woh hi chai ka glass woh hi bench woh hi ciggerate ka packet aur dheemi sulagti aag. Woh hi raat ka andhera meri zindagi ki tarah aur woh raat ke sannate ko cheerti traffic ki duur ek halki aawaz. Woh hi halki baarish ki boondein aur woh hi halki aankhon me nami.
Us raat ka dard ajeeb tha. Waisa hi kuch dard aaj bhi seene me uth raha hai. Raat ki is tanhayi me bhi aisa lag raha hai jaise na jaane kitna shor ho. Baahar yeh kisi ko kyon sun nahi raha. Kahin yeh shor mere andar to nahi. Bohot koshish kar raha hoon is shor me apni aawaz sun jaye kahin. Baar baar apne kaano ko apne haath se dhakta hoon ke shaayad yeh aawaz band ho jaaye. Kitne sawaal hai is shor me. Kahaan dhoondo in sawaalo ka jawaab. Kaise band karu in aawazo ko. Yeh kisi aur ki nahi. Mere hi andar ki aawaz hai jo mere ko jhinjhod rahi hai.
Aaj fir bhaagna chahata hoon. Kahin door in awazo se. Dil ka dard aisa ki nikaal pheko isko bahar kahin. Nahi isko bardasht karna mumkin.
Phone baj raha hai. Pooch rahein hain ki kahan hoon main. Kya jawaab doon ki kahan hoon main jab main khud apne aapko dhoondh raha hoon. Raat ke is andhere me chand ki is roshni me kahan dhoondo apne aap ko.
Kal fir ek subah hogi. Kal fir muskuraunga main. Kal fir zindagi waapis chal padegi lekin kya main in sawaalo ko suljha paunga. Ya fir kal raat yahin baith kar is sannate me apne andar ke shor ko sununga.
Duniya se shaayad bhaag paaunga lekin apne aap se bhaag kar kahan jaunga.
Woh hi chai ka glass woh hi bench woh hi ciggerate ka packet aur dheemi sulagti aag. Woh hi raat ka andhera meri zindagi ki tarah aur woh raat ke sannate ko cheerti traffic ki duur ek halki aawaz. Woh hi halki baarish ki boondein aur woh hi halki aankhon me nami.
Us raat ka dard ajeeb tha. Waisa hi kuch dard aaj bhi seene me uth raha hai. Raat ki is tanhayi me bhi aisa lag raha hai jaise na jaane kitna shor ho. Baahar yeh kisi ko kyon sun nahi raha. Kahin yeh shor mere andar to nahi. Bohot koshish kar raha hoon is shor me apni aawaz sun jaye kahin. Baar baar apne kaano ko apne haath se dhakta hoon ke shaayad yeh aawaz band ho jaaye. Kitne sawaal hai is shor me. Kahaan dhoondo in sawaalo ka jawaab. Kaise band karu in aawazo ko. Yeh kisi aur ki nahi. Mere hi andar ki aawaz hai jo mere ko jhinjhod rahi hai.
Aaj fir bhaagna chahata hoon. Kahin door in awazo se. Dil ka dard aisa ki nikaal pheko isko bahar kahin. Nahi isko bardasht karna mumkin.
Phone baj raha hai. Pooch rahein hain ki kahan hoon main. Kya jawaab doon ki kahan hoon main jab main khud apne aapko dhoondh raha hoon. Raat ke is andhere me chand ki is roshni me kahan dhoondo apne aap ko.
Kal fir ek subah hogi. Kal fir muskuraunga main. Kal fir zindagi waapis chal padegi lekin kya main in sawaalo ko suljha paunga. Ya fir kal raat yahin baith kar is sannate me apne andar ke shor ko sununga.
Duniya se shaayad bhaag paaunga lekin apne aap se bhaag kar kahan jaunga.
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